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-pissed at the system
-pissed I cant find a job
-pissed I have to bitch on a FUCKING COMPUTER about my problems like every other whining person on LJ or facebook or whatever
-pissed that I no longer have an interest in a job after applying over 50 places in the past few months and ONLY getting a call from well KB....
-pissed that after I get a job the fucking american economy blows so bad that I loose it cuz KB is bankrupt...
-pissed cuz I know you dont care about this shit and I dont care that you dont care but wish deep down to be the spotlight girl again and get cared about by all the other careless people who want to be cared about just as desperately as I do...
-pissed cuz im only saying all that to get you pissed so im not alone and pissed
-pissed cuz if you got this far you may or may not be laughing at my stupididy
-pissed you think im stupid in the first place
-pissed your not laughing at my pissed joke

You see and you still dont care...

My new american motto "FUCK YOU....but look at me!"

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Dec. 22nd, 2008

Did you think for a second I was dead? Well im alive!
Thats all!

HATE

Hate...
That is all...

Warning Bitch

fuck this shit...
Either im getting more paranoid or something...
I just dont like posting personal shit on here anymore...

like I dont want to type about my feelings...
years later and I dont think one post about my feelings actually changed anything...
comments make me smile and feel good for a second but then I go back to the world and everything is the same...infact I think posting about feelings made it more difficult to talk about them in person with real people...(just for fun leave a comment if you read this make it about the election) cuz then its like "O did you read my post" and they go "yeah" and then thats it....doesnt make you feel better and you never got to talk about it not to any real living breathing person...

just cyberspace...just that faceless nameless post box....
Hello post box...how are you today?
...

im going to do something about this....I just dont know what yet...
My vagina is bleeding....you dont understand how happy that makes me...

FLAP JACKS!

Went to my first Yoga class today and it was way cooler than I thought it was gonna be even if the instructor chick was the size of my thigh....LOL

FUCK...
FUCK... LOL sorry just realized its to late to call the doctors now...O well...call them tomorrow...call them tomorrow...I will remember...YES...

Anyways I saw my little Sara the other day and we had a good time...went on many adventures...
It was fun...

Alright...going to get food...

WOW

Wow....me and Emilio have been together half a year....
I guess I just dont do short term....LOL
IM NOT COMPLAINING....I just realized that I have had only ONE relationship last less than 6 months....LOL and it lasted exactly 4 weeks....let me tell you thats a LONG TIME LOL....

I got to see Rachel for a few days....she came out to visit me and we had a good time....Sara came out last night and so did Rachel's little pet Bryan and we all went to his place of work....ya know the TRON....LOL of LASERS....LOL

Im in a dorky mood....Im doing a lot of reflecting and its in waves of good and bad but so far its pretty well balanced....except for the time I picked up a dollar bill that these 12 year old girls dropped and didnt give it to them....thats my negative karma for the time....

BRIGHT GREEN....me and Steph went to A.C. Moore today and got a TON of yarn....she went all crazy cuz she wants to plan out her next blanket and we ended up getting 60$ of yarn....I mean its all hers except for 2 skeins of this multi colored native american kinda colored thing....its really pretty....

I miss my baby....
Hes not going to have his Jeep up at school so I dont know if I will be able to see him for a really long time...

OMG my brother found this newspaper from post WWII its not worth anything at all $$$ wise but it was cool to look at....and then we decided seeing how it was Nazis all over the cover we decided that we were gonna make Nazi art....it was so funny....one of the Nazi women I cut the head off of her and put it on this little body from a Kids card game....and cut it all out and put it on the fridge....
NAZI WOMEN.....

My blanket is like half done maybe a little less than half done....its like the size of a bathroom rug....only made of yarn and love....LOL

So yes...

p.s. Little Sara I hope your feeling better....I LUV YOU WOMAN!
So yeah I filled out a jillion page application to be an egg donor today...
NOT KIDDING...lol
I have thought about it for years cuz I mean wtf am I gonna do with the xtra thousands of eggs I have? Nothing im gonna die with them...so why not help out a few needy families along the way...

Its good money... 8 grand the first donation 10 each following one....
The place I signed up for specializes in finding eggs for gay couples...I think thats pretty neat...I mean they do straight couples tooooo....but still....

I realize that you all might be torn up on this concept...so if you want to voice your opinion do so in an orderly way LOL...

I hope I get to do it...I need to pass on my genes of greatness....LOL

That is all...

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Jul. 6th, 2008

I leave for camping tomorrow(well technically today)!
We will be out in the middle of no where so if you need to reach me send up smoke signals...
Not kidding prolly no cell phone reception there and no charger to charge it....

No running water and no toilets whoop whoop I cant wait to take a shit in a hole! LOL
Anyways just want to let you know that I will be back on Thursday at some point...
Wish me luck! LOL

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Jun. 23rd, 2008

Fuck Americas Hospital System...

What guy goes to the hospital with chest pains and still comes out dead?
George Carlin....WTF
R.I.P. you witty fucker!

Thats all!
I PASSED....
IT WAS THE SHITTIEST TEST I HAVE EVER TAKEN IN MY LIFE.............
I WOULD OF RATHER HAD MY EYES POKED REPEATEDLY BY NEEDLES THAN HAVE TAKEN THAT FRICKING TEST....

I got an 81....
I dont want to talk about it....like EVER....
That is all!

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